Meeting Jesus – The Healer in You

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Hey  ,

I shared in my last post how I began connecting with Jesus (apprehensively) and the questions I asked him around sin, the resurrection and why he was showing up for me at this time.

It created a great deal of response and based on the emails I received it hit home for many of you.

If you missed it, you can read it here.

Now, I would like to take you deeper into our conversation where we talk about ‘Jesus – the healer’, the Christ Consciousness within each of us and what that has to do with your personal evolution.

*I would like to remind you that this is a personal account and am sharing as a way to help others understand what I have come to understand. I am sharing from the space of love, so if it doesn’t feel right to you, that is okay…simply move on.*


Me: ‘Now that I understand sin and the intention behind the resurrection, help me understand something else.

If I (all of us) are like you, then what about the healing you did- you know, the spontaneous healing that is plastered all throughout the Bible. I can’t do that.
If I work with you this year and learn to embrace my inner Christ Consciousness, does that mean I am going to be able to start randomly healing people?’

Jesus: ‘I didn’t heal them.’

Me (confused): ‘WHAT?!

What about the leper and the servant of that follower and that blind man and the guy who couldn’t walk and all the accounts of people who were healed simply by touching your clothes?!

I have heard these stories read directly from the Bible and have heard them recounted over and over throughout my life. It is always told…and Jesus said, Go and be healed or May you be healed…or something like that.
Are you telling me none of them are true?’

Jesus: (being all irritatingly calm and patient)

‘I didn’t say that. Those people were healed, but I didn’t heal them.’

Me: Long silent pause, then, ‘I don’t understand.’

Jesus: ‘Get your Bible and I will show you.’

So I grab my bible and sit down.

Jesus: ‘Open it to a story of where it talks about one of those healings.’

To be honest, I don’t know where in the Bible the stories are; I was never good at remembering those things.

So, I did what I always do when I ask for a message from a book. I close my eyes and open it. Then scan the page until something jumps out at me.

EVERY time I opened the Bible during this conversation with Jesus it opened to one of the stories sharing a healing miracle. EVERY. TIME.

Side note: I did not write down the scripture locations as I never intended to write about this, so you will have to look these stories up on your own if you desire.

…back to our conversation…

I opened the book to the first story and read it.

Me: Okay, I have read the story, but I don’t see what you are talking about. It says right here: ‘…and Jesus said, Go and be healed.”

Jesus: That is only part of the sentence….keep reading.

Me: Okay.  ‘…and Jesus said, Go and be healed … the level of your belief.’ 

My eyes widened as I started to get what he was saying……

Jesus: Yes. That is it.

I did not heal them. I simply held the connection so that they could choose to receive the healing for themselves. Their belief was a critical component.
If they did not believe, they were not healed.

But since seeing is believing for many, when they saw others heal, they believed they could too.

I am no different, nor more powerful than any one of you. Yet, I had a clear understanding and trust in the co-creative nature of the Universe. I clearly understood that I was a channel for God to work through. I learned to release any resistance.

Me: If this is true, then why are you seen as ‘special’ and ‘chosen’? Why didn’t people simply start healing themselves then and now?


First, my intention was not to show how great I was, but to help others see what was possible; in an attempt to help them discover their own greatness.

I was demonstrating the power within, yet because people were used to being controlled and felt powerless,  they could not recognize their own power within and misunderstood my message. I was then glorified as though I was somehow different from them.

Second: Other people have done it and are doing it today. The planet is healing at a rapid rate from the mass fear that has run rampant for so long.

There are healers of all types – doctors, shamans, energy workers, therapists that are all doing exactly what I did. Holding the space and connection for you to receive the level of healing you choose to allow.



Jesus said, be like me.

As a means of saying see how I am being. See my connection to God, see how I show up. See what energy I am giving.  Now go do that.

Instead…we began to make him special. Different somehow from us.

Which is not true and was never the point.

Yet we still chose to see him as special because we did not yet have faith in our own connection and divinity, nor see our own worth.

This is the part of his teaching that is so widely misunderstood.

That is what many of us are clearing in this lifetime. It is why so many struggle with accepting our power and have the ‘not enough’ syndrome. As we clear these in this lifetime, we will no longer have to work through these issues.

His greatest desire for you at this time is for you to learn to cultivate, trust and know your own Divine connection.

To feel the power that surges through you as a natural response to your own creative and healing energies.

You are powerful. Just as powerful as Jesus and it is time to own it.

Such a deep message and I encourage you to begin to cultivate your connection starting now and here is a simple way to begin.

Close your eyes.

Take a deep breath.

Call on Jesus to help you with forming this Divine connection.

Put your hand on your heart and just focus on the steady beat.

Take another deep breath saying out loud or in your mind:

I breathe in trust.

I breathe out peace.
Notice what sensations occur.

Ask one question.

Let the thought that immediately pops into your head be the answer.

Sending you big love,


Jesus, Orlando and Your Spark




It has been a week of heavy energy, yes?

It really has me thinking about why these things are happening now and for what purpose and with the fact that I have been talking to Jesus and I am on the awakening Christ Consciousness within bandwagon, I thought I would share some insights.

So, I was getting ready for work the day after the Orlando shooting and I was feeling…off. Something was going on with me that felt bad. I had to explore what I was thinking because negative emotion is a sign that what you are thinking/underlying beliefs aren’t in alignment with what your higher self knows to be true.


While getting dressed I began asking myself some questions, like….’What are you feeling right now?’ ‘Are these feelings yours or someone else’s?’ (as an empath, it is easy for me to take on others emotions or society’s emotions as my own if I am not aware),
‘What do you want?’

To my surprise I realized, I was feeling off because I was telling myself I should be deeply saddened for the victims of that tragedy, but I wasn’t. My heart went out to the families, friends and loved ones who are experiencing the intense loss, but I was not sad for the victims.
Yet, because that was what the ‘normal’ response to situations like this…my mind kept telling me ‘I should’ be more upset. (Saying I should, is always a key to see that something is out of alignment with your thinking and your truth.)

This kinda shocked me!

Then I asked myself ‘why wasn’t I sad for the victims?’

Because it goes against my true knowing that there are no victims. We all choose our purpose, entrance and exit of each lifetime we live. We come here knowing the why for it, knowing the meaning of it, knowing how it will fulfill the expansion of our soul and those souls that we touch.
We choose this, so we cannot be victims of it.

*Want to understand this perspective more? Read The Little Soul and The Sun by Neale Donald Walsch


I then began wondering what Jesus’s response would be in this and how he would see it.

So I asked him.

He led me to a passage in the bible that talks about him weeping with the mourners of Leviticus, he then points out that he wept, not for the dead (because he knew there is no death and his friend was eternal) but he wept as he felt the pain of the family.
He wept because he took that pain on as his own.

(Holy crap. Jesus was an empath!)

He also did not fear death (because it doesn’t exist) so he did not carry fear for the dead.

Okay, that makes sense AND feels right in my heart.

As I was driving to work, I asked him, ‘What is the purpose within this and what are we to individually take from it to expand ourselves and the global consciousness?’

I will let him share his response:

This experience, as all tragic experiences, is meant to connect you back to your hearts and love.
We are in the midst of a breaking down of old ways and beliefs that as a society you have been carrying. You are collectively transforming the world as a new way of being emerges.
Do not fear this.
As with all transformation there must be an ending and letting go, so that there may be space to create the new.

Just as you have to tear down an old house and clear away the debris before you can build a new one, it is the same with beliefs and old ways of being.

Let yourself feel what comes up for you, but it will do no good to hold those emotions or suppress them.

When you think of the ‘victims’ or the shooter, do not focus on the death, but focus on their life. See their light in this.
(Yes, I include the shooter, because he had an important role. He was the friction that caused the spark.)

They came here to be a spark. To ignite the light within you. To build the flames within your heart, so that you may reconnect to yourselves in a deeper way. That you may then fan the flames and reclaim your own fire to reunite with love.

The question now is, what will you do with this fire?

Will you use it to burn others? Will you let it die out after the TVs have stopped reporting? Will you let the embers calm, but continue burning a deep rage within you?
Will you let the fire transform you?

Will you allow it to release you from the chains of fear that you have been carrying so that you may shine brighter than you ever have before?’

Now there is a question that should be plastered on the news media headlines.

What will you do with the fire that this tragedy has sparked within?


How did this resonate with you? Was it a hell yes, or a hell no?  Share in the comments below!


Big love,


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Meeting Jesus


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Every morning, I make time to have a chat with my Spirit Posse (that team of angels, guides, goddesses, loved ones, etc that are here to help me on my highest life path.)

It is always revealing, loving and inspiring. (psstt….you have a team too! I highly recommend you begin chatting with them.)

Anyway, at the start of 2016, to my surprise a new player joined the team – Jesus.

I was very surprised because although I was raised in a christian home, I never purposefully connected with him due to the many, many unanswered questions I had carried forward from my youth.

There was so much that religion taught me when I was younger that just never made sense to me. And because I was young, I tied all that confusion and frustration up around the key word that was used….Jesus.

This is why I was more drawn to words like Universal or Divine or Spirit because the words carried less baggage.

Yet, here he was  ~ Jesus.

Patient and strong. Ready to connect with me – the one who I had avoided anything to do with for years.


One day in late January, as he continually showed up to my Spirit sessions, I politely asked him if he was going to be around for a while?
He replied with a yes, he would be working with me quite closely this year.

I took a deep breath and took that in. To be honest, my initial thought was ‘Shit.’

I would be working with someone who triggered a great deal of mixed emotions in me, so just like I would do with a co-worker, I asked to have some get-to-know you time as I had many unanswered questions and if we were going to work closely together (and to uphold my commitment of being an open channel) then I needed to clear some things up.

My exact words were: “Well, if you are going to be sticking around, then we need to talk. I have a lot of unanswered questions and shit that just doesn’t make sense.”


He was only too happy to oblige and was pleased that I would choose to ‘clear the air’ so quickly.

We had several conversations over the coming weeks and it brought me clarity around so much. It literally shifted my entire understanding of Jesus and his purpose.



These conversations changed my perspective in such a way that I feel it is important to share, because if I had questions, I know others do as well.

*Side note: I am standing in a very vulnerable space in sharing these conversations, so I would love for you to be open in reading it. Take what feels right for you. If it doesn’t feel aligned with your heart…that’s okay…just move on to another post.*


My first question was “Why are you here? Why now?”

He explained that this year I will be learning that I am just like him (that in fact we all are). I will begin to really embody the Christ Consciousness; as part of my purpose as a light worker is to help others embody the Christ Consciousness within them.

*Cue freakout moment*

Eyes wide and standing disbelief and skepticism, I replied with a sarcastic teenager-y, “Really. That is a bit hard to believe.”


I was raised in a christian home, but have struggled to understand how the bible relates to all that I know about the Universe now. I just couldn’t get past the idea of sin, worshiping God or how exactly did Christ die for my sins among other things.


I decided to set the whole Christ Consciousness thing aside and start with something that feels a bit more close to home for me.

Me: ‘If God is all -loving then where the hell does sin fit in to all of this? How can I be born ‘bad’ if he loves me unconditionally? If I am a part of God and he created me, then how can I be ‘bad’ from birth? That doesn’t make any sense!”

Jesus: It is simply a language issue. (Like the angels, he makes everything sound so simple…lol)

Replace the word ‘sin’ with ‘fear’.

Fear is simply a perception of disconnection from the Spirit within.


The ‘original sin’ as you call the Eve eating the apple story…was simply the beginning of the awareness of fear.

The snake represents the choice to listen to the ego and eating the apple was the ingestion of fear into the world. The beginning of the perception that one can be disconnected from God (which is not true, but simply a perception).

The casting out of the Garden of Eden was simply a perception that God was no longer supporting them as they were now creating life from a place of fear and not love.

Their thoughts created their reality. (Law of Attraction)
Just like when you are in lack- it is you creating this experience from fear/disconnection. When you reconnect with the truth of who you are and focus on your connection, abundance is a natural outcome.


Another example of this is pain during childbirth is a belief that was chosen out of the disconnected or fear thoughts. Childbirth doesn’t have to be painful….but that idea is so deeply accepted. Change your thoughts and you change your reality.


Me: “What about the resurrection and the whole idea that you died for our sins??”


Jesus: I had spoken, taught and demonstrated through life how to live from connection to Spirit (God)…basically, how to live from love.  Yet, people at that time still had a great fear of death.

His resurrected so others would see there is nothing to fear. Death was the greatest fear at that time and by transcending death, he was demonstrating that death does not exist for anyone.

The only way I could assist them to move beyond that fear was to demonstrate there is no death.  Hence the resurrection story.


Me: “Why did you have to die in such a tragic way?”

Jesus: Because I chose to use my death as an opportunity to unify people. During tragic times, people get out of their heads (disconnection) and drop into the moment and their heart (connection).
They stop (even if for a short time) looking for success outside of them and search for re connection. Hitler, 9/11, all the world wars…were tragic, but also a great blessing and call to love.
It gave the world a point of connection that was desperately needed to evolve.



Wow! Holy love balls this changes so much from what I was taught (or maybe how I heard it).

I will share more in next week’s post as I talk with Jesus and his ability to heal others and how that relates to our own Christ Consciousness.

Until then..BIG LOVE,