I arrived at the hotel, having just gone through an intense week at my job, excited to see what the next 2 weeks had prepared for me.
My schedule consisted of a week of networking and training with my job and then off to meet my Mastermind Group and meet and network in an entrepreneur setting.
I was definitely curious to see how this would turn out.
Interestingly enough, the universe had organized a perfect plan, once again.
It turns out, BOTH settings delivered the same message!
The message of leadership, individual responsibility, believing in yourself and taking risks.
Demonstrations and exercises were done that reflected, projected and erected ALL the places I was holding back in life. I mean they literally GLARED right at me the whole 2 weeks!
So needless to say, it was a month of getting real and getting honest with myself and what I really wanted.
Was I really willing to take the risks needed or was I going to play safe and let go of the dream.
It became very apparent: It is now or never!
I chose NOW. I came back inspired and full of passion for my dreams.
And then reality hit!
Even though I was determined and recommitted, my old habits kept pushing their way into my day.
I found myself eating in front of the TV instead of writing or walking.
I found myself taking on an extra project at work instead of freeing my time to focus on my business.
I was making excuses and rationalizing why I could sleep another hour.
THIS WAS AWESOME NEWS!
Because now I can clearly see where I am holding myself back, the thinking and actions that need change and where my energy is going.
I can now take control and make the change I want!!
Now I call that a success.
Here’s how things are looking so far:
July Aug Sep Oct
Weight 255 255 249 253
Income $4000 $4000 $8088 $6090
Worthiness 5 6 6.5 6
Opportunities 2 5 6 4
Worthiness scale is 1-10 with 10 being the highest (this is a personal view of how I felt about myself this month…no concrete data. Just an honest, open assessment.)
Opportunities = income increasing opportunities that presented themselves (may have saved me money or made me money)
I gained weight. I didn’t stick to any of my previous routines while traveling and found it a big mental challenge to get back on track.
My feeling of self worth dropped as I was forced to examine all the places that I was keeping myself small. I am truly grateful for this enlightening month, however, facing your stuff is exhausting, icky and really sucks. But forgiving myself has been a true blessing this month!
My money went down some, but still above where I started, which is where I think I am overall.
Better than when I started.
Next month: In the spirit of forgiveness and forward movement, I have decided to have a do-over. I will be doing the same challenge that I had intended to do this month.
What can you forgive yourself for and recommit to starting again? Let me know in the comments!
Hugs and health,
Wanna know more about what this challenge is and why you should join me?
Go here: my-weight-my-worth-my-money
‘Women have lost the ability to trust in their own heart, listen to their bodies and believe in themselves and that is fueling our life of fear and scarcity.
It is part of my life’s purpose to help every woman reconnect with themselves and live a confident , prosperous life where you have the money, time and freedom to explore and create the life of your dreams.
It all starts with believing in you.” Jenean Zunk
Michelle Greenman is The Women’s Wellness Coach.
I am a coach who works with professional women who want a healthier lifestyle, one that fits their busy schedule and gets results like maintaining a healthy weight, creating natural energy and disease proofing their bodies. My 7 steps natural health program teaches them how to take control their health, to know, love and transform their body.
Connect with me at http://www.michellegreenman.com
*Thanks to BK for the photo!